Saturday, July 2, 2011
Like In My Dreams
First time I saw you, you took my breath away. I have never seen a more beautiful person than you. After that you were my dream, I wanted it to be a dream. You and me, forever. The thing is we don't even know each other, but when I look at you I just want to be with you and talk about all the things that are possible to talk about. I want to be in your arms and I want you to see me and love me. But this is still a dream. I know that we will never be together, but my heart really hopes that one day, when the sun is shining, that it can be you and me. I know it's too late now that you have a girlfriend. But it doesn't matter because from what I have heard, the impossible love is the strongest. So please, see me, like I saw you for the first time. I know that you can't decide what is going to happen. It depends on destiny. I want to be your destiny. I just want to get to know you, and then maybe we can be more. WE can be each other's everything, like in my dreams. Because you are everywhere in my dreams. When I have a good day, it is because you were in my dream the night before. Let me be your dream. Let me be seen by you. Let me be your everything.
That's What I Want
"Good morning my love!
I don’t think I could ever describe the way I really feel about you. I am so blessed for being the one you chose to be with and it’s a privilege to love you and to take care of you. You know that your a ‘Gift from God’ and it really is true because that’s what you are for me.
I want to be by your side forever, to lay with you and hear you breathing, watching you sleep. You’re so gorgeous! I never get tired of looking at you. Your beauty mesmerizes me. And our son is so beautiful because he has you as your father.
I love you so much. I want to marry you, to share my whole life with you, to wake up every day and see the most handsome guy I’ve ever seen. My best friend, my boyfriendd and hopefully my future husband. You’re the only one that I picture myself with in the future.
I was wondering about our future the other day, and I imagined us holding our baby through the night, trying to make him sleep. You were rocking him to sleep. And I realized that, that’s what I want, that’s what I really want with all that’s within me.
Thank you for being so caring, loving and patient.
Thank you for being my partner in crime
I love you"
I don’t think I could ever describe the way I really feel about you. I am so blessed for being the one you chose to be with and it’s a privilege to love you and to take care of you. You know that your a ‘Gift from God’ and it really is true because that’s what you are for me.
I want to be by your side forever, to lay with you and hear you breathing, watching you sleep. You’re so gorgeous! I never get tired of looking at you. Your beauty mesmerizes me. And our son is so beautiful because he has you as your father.
I love you so much. I want to marry you, to share my whole life with you, to wake up every day and see the most handsome guy I’ve ever seen. My best friend, my boyfriendd and hopefully my future husband. You’re the only one that I picture myself with in the future.
I was wondering about our future the other day, and I imagined us holding our baby through the night, trying to make him sleep. You were rocking him to sleep. And I realized that, that’s what I want, that’s what I really want with all that’s within me.
Thank you for being so caring, loving and patient.
Thank you for being my partner in crime
I love you"
Up to How You Really Feel
Hey "bestest" friend. You know who you are.
I'm just writing this to say that I've been thinking a lot lately and I realize this is going nowhere. We can never really talk heart to heart and that's what I want. Communication is just really important to me. Although it's kind of hard, I kept trying and I sometimes worked but never for a long time. It's hard for me to commit without you. So please, tell me if you really do like me, so I will know if my efforts are worth anything at all. Don't hint some remark that could possibly be known as flirting. Because that gets me confused and mad. For all I know, you could be just really friendly and have not thought of us being more than friends. Your actions and words speak otherwise...
And with all I know, I've been liking you for a few years now. And I can't wait any longer. I need answers.
So here's to the possibilities. Either you end this unknown and tell me how you really feel or I just walk away. Even being just friends with you is too hard. I need to move on. I can't be stuck waiting.
And whether you read this or not, it's going to be here. Whether you reply to this or not, it's up to how you really feel.
I'm just writing this to say that I've been thinking a lot lately and I realize this is going nowhere. We can never really talk heart to heart and that's what I want. Communication is just really important to me. Although it's kind of hard, I kept trying and I sometimes worked but never for a long time. It's hard for me to commit without you. So please, tell me if you really do like me, so I will know if my efforts are worth anything at all. Don't hint some remark that could possibly be known as flirting. Because that gets me confused and mad. For all I know, you could be just really friendly and have not thought of us being more than friends. Your actions and words speak otherwise...
And with all I know, I've been liking you for a few years now. And I can't wait any longer. I need answers.
So here's to the possibilities. Either you end this unknown and tell me how you really feel or I just walk away. Even being just friends with you is too hard. I need to move on. I can't be stuck waiting.
And whether you read this or not, it's going to be here. Whether you reply to this or not, it's up to how you really feel.
No Easy Way Out
Why do I have to be the bad guy? Breaking up isn't always bad, right? What if breaking up was the only option? What if breaking up was the best option?
Most people don't appreciate that the person choosing to initiate the break-up has it really hard. Sure, whenever we picture someone dumping someone, we picture them as the dick who ruined the relationship because they didn't care enough or they wanted someone else more. But what if the person ending the relationship is the brave one? They're the one who is willing to accept the responsibility. They're willing to say, "This is the right choice for both of us."
What's the best option between breaking your best friend's heart now, or not wanting to hurt them now and hurting them even more later? Bite the bullet. Take the hit. It's painful, like a plunge into ice cold water. But like the body, your heart and mind slowly adjust to the change in atmosphere. You know that you're there alone, and you're making the decision for two people, but you've got to be sure it's the right one. And you are sure that it's the right one. Or at least that's what you hope.
But why the hell does having the guts to be honest make you a bad person? Why does it have to mean that you've victimized the other person somehow? Sure, he's hurting right now. But I know that I'm hurting knowing I've hurt him. I still wouldn't take it back, knowing I couldn't make myself love him and knowing I'd just make him more unhappy later.
There's no easy way out, but I'm not a villain for making the choice. Don't make the mistake that this decision was easy for me.
Most people don't appreciate that the person choosing to initiate the break-up has it really hard. Sure, whenever we picture someone dumping someone, we picture them as the dick who ruined the relationship because they didn't care enough or they wanted someone else more. But what if the person ending the relationship is the brave one? They're the one who is willing to accept the responsibility. They're willing to say, "This is the right choice for both of us."
What's the best option between breaking your best friend's heart now, or not wanting to hurt them now and hurting them even more later? Bite the bullet. Take the hit. It's painful, like a plunge into ice cold water. But like the body, your heart and mind slowly adjust to the change in atmosphere. You know that you're there alone, and you're making the decision for two people, but you've got to be sure it's the right one. And you are sure that it's the right one. Or at least that's what you hope.
But why the hell does having the guts to be honest make you a bad person? Why does it have to mean that you've victimized the other person somehow? Sure, he's hurting right now. But I know that I'm hurting knowing I've hurt him. I still wouldn't take it back, knowing I couldn't make myself love him and knowing I'd just make him more unhappy later.
There's no easy way out, but I'm not a villain for making the choice. Don't make the mistake that this decision was easy for me.
It's Not You, It's Me
You're beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.
It's hard to fabricate lies when you don't want to make someone sad. When you really really like them...but not in that way. You can't just blatantly lie to them and pretend you love them...they're too beautiful for that. The thing is, they're also too beautiful to lie to. Too beautiful for you to hurt because you don't want to hurt them.You don't want to make them cry, to ruin their beauty by making them feel pain. The problem is...you can't not. You have to do one or the other......the pain...or the lies? Which is the best for them? Break their heart now.....or later. Later when they find out you never liked them like that. That when you kissed them you had to try you're hardest not to be disgusted because, yes they were beautiful but they weren't who you wanted. They were perfect but they just didn't have that special something. You don't want them to feel like it was their fault. Like they aren't perfect or beautiful. You want them to know that it's you. You're the one with the issue and you wish, wish that you could love them......but you can't. And it's killing you. You don't want it to be like that. You want to love being kissed by them. You want to lust after them. To give them your heart and soul.....but you simply just can't. You're incapable of feeling like that and it sucks. They're incredibly beautiful so beautiful that it hurts. And you can't hold back, you just have to tell them, you can't not. Because you know, you know deep down that this is for the best. That this is what you need to do and you do it. You don't want to and you despise yourself for it.....but you do it. You can't handle the pain that is shown upon this beautiful person so...you leave but just before you go you say those five dreaded words.....it's not you, it's me.
It's hard to fabricate lies when you don't want to make someone sad. When you really really like them...but not in that way. You can't just blatantly lie to them and pretend you love them...they're too beautiful for that. The thing is, they're also too beautiful to lie to. Too beautiful for you to hurt because you don't want to hurt them.You don't want to make them cry, to ruin their beauty by making them feel pain. The problem is...you can't not. You have to do one or the other......the pain...or the lies? Which is the best for them? Break their heart now.....or later. Later when they find out you never liked them like that. That when you kissed them you had to try you're hardest not to be disgusted because, yes they were beautiful but they weren't who you wanted. They were perfect but they just didn't have that special something. You don't want them to feel like it was their fault. Like they aren't perfect or beautiful. You want them to know that it's you. You're the one with the issue and you wish, wish that you could love them......but you can't. And it's killing you. You don't want it to be like that. You want to love being kissed by them. You want to lust after them. To give them your heart and soul.....but you simply just can't. You're incapable of feeling like that and it sucks. They're incredibly beautiful so beautiful that it hurts. And you can't hold back, you just have to tell them, you can't not. Because you know, you know deep down that this is for the best. That this is what you need to do and you do it. You don't want to and you despise yourself for it.....but you do it. You can't handle the pain that is shown upon this beautiful person so...you leave but just before you go you say those five dreaded words.....it's not you, it's me.
I Love(d) You
I love(d) you
It has been a while since we broke up, for the second time. It was different this time, we both gave up. I tried to get this relationship back but it's obviously not working.
My heart literally shattered into pieces at the moment you told me you're done trying to do anything to make this relationship work. And that you're just going to sit back and let whatever happen, happen. You said, "If God wants us to be together, we will." But then again, if you love something, you shoud work for it. It's sad, because you left me hanging.
You told me I am a bitch and I never appreciated anything. You said I never made effort in maintaining this relationship.I told myself to give all up on you.
But then again, I can't. Everyday, I feel so lost. And when our song started playing on the radio, the feeling I have towards you, it's there. Tears started shedding. Every night, I fall asleep in a wet pillow. While you enjoy hanging out with your friends. You told me you were hurtin too, but it doesn't seem like it.
And I can't watch any sort of love, romance movies anymore. Because it hurts so badly. I was never those who cried during sad love stories, but now, I am. You turned me into an emotionally weak person.
You promised me forever. You said you were going to have a future with me. You said I was the only one you loved. You are my first serious, adult relationship. You told me I was what you have wanted, you said you will love me for as long as you can. I told you I don't believe in sweet talks. But, you made me believe everything you said.
And then you tore me apart. You broke my heart. Completely.
But I love you, and yet I shouldn't.
You spoiled my whole perspective towards love. Do you know that?
You said we coudl be friends. So you started texting me as friends. You're giving me hope towards the relationship, a false hope. I tried not to reply, but how could I? Please stop this. It sucks.
One day, I will be happy again. I hope
It has been a while since we broke up, for the second time. It was different this time, we both gave up. I tried to get this relationship back but it's obviously not working.
My heart literally shattered into pieces at the moment you told me you're done trying to do anything to make this relationship work. And that you're just going to sit back and let whatever happen, happen. You said, "If God wants us to be together, we will." But then again, if you love something, you shoud work for it. It's sad, because you left me hanging.
You told me I am a bitch and I never appreciated anything. You said I never made effort in maintaining this relationship.I told myself to give all up on you.
But then again, I can't. Everyday, I feel so lost. And when our song started playing on the radio, the feeling I have towards you, it's there. Tears started shedding. Every night, I fall asleep in a wet pillow. While you enjoy hanging out with your friends. You told me you were hurtin too, but it doesn't seem like it.
And I can't watch any sort of love, romance movies anymore. Because it hurts so badly. I was never those who cried during sad love stories, but now, I am. You turned me into an emotionally weak person.
You promised me forever. You said you were going to have a future with me. You said I was the only one you loved. You are my first serious, adult relationship. You told me I was what you have wanted, you said you will love me for as long as you can. I told you I don't believe in sweet talks. But, you made me believe everything you said.
And then you tore me apart. You broke my heart. Completely.
But I love you, and yet I shouldn't.
You spoiled my whole perspective towards love. Do you know that?
You said we coudl be friends. So you started texting me as friends. You're giving me hope towards the relationship, a false hope. I tried not to reply, but how could I? Please stop this. It sucks.
One day, I will be happy again. I hope
Waiting
My life has been short but I have already learned quite a bit about love... not through personal experience, but more through seeing others I know love. Some love and lose, some lose someone they might have loved and luckily some love each other forever. I think about that one or many loves constantly, always hoping I don't miss my chance. My fear of never finding that love has mad me create an unattainable goal in my head; find the perfect guy you will find the perfect relationship and you will get the perfect life. That whole scenario is what I have been looking for.
But I have realized that kind of perfectness does not exist in a person. It exists in a connection, a relationship. That is what love is. Love is that person who isn't necessairly perfect, but is perfect for you.
They say real love comes when you aren't searching for it. I used to think that it was absurd to say that because most everyone is searching for love; and many do find it. But of all those people I know, who I have watched love, though it may not have lasted forever, I have realized one thing. They all loved. There isn't a person I know who could end their life saying they haven't loved. The moment I realized that, that was the moment I stopped searching. I stopped searching for that perfect guy., for that perfect relationship, for that perfect life.
I have never been in love, but I am waiting for it. No longer searching. Waiting because I know it will come.
But I have realized that kind of perfectness does not exist in a person. It exists in a connection, a relationship. That is what love is. Love is that person who isn't necessairly perfect, but is perfect for you.
They say real love comes when you aren't searching for it. I used to think that it was absurd to say that because most everyone is searching for love; and many do find it. But of all those people I know, who I have watched love, though it may not have lasted forever, I have realized one thing. They all loved. There isn't a person I know who could end their life saying they haven't loved. The moment I realized that, that was the moment I stopped searching. I stopped searching for that perfect guy., for that perfect relationship, for that perfect life.
I have never been in love, but I am waiting for it. No longer searching. Waiting because I know it will come.
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